Sometimes, I just look at Ruairidh and it gets me in the gut. The love I have for him is visceral. It’s actually quite difficult to articulate. It is, at the same time, brilliant and terrifying. He is an absolute wonder, always learning, always challenging me. There are times when he smiles at me that I want to jump up and down with excitement. I wonder if one day, I might burst because I’m so full of love for him.